i know that people supposedly think that i "mold" to whoever i am dating. but i think thats a load of bull. bc the people who are saying this have no fucking clue what they are talking about. yes, i hung out with the people for a while. but i never opened up to them. they have no clue who i really am. they may have seen the true side of me maybe once or twice. this was bc i was shy & intimidated. lame, i know. but anyway. the two things that have been coming up in conversation are:
1. the situation on me claiming the x- i have always had straightedge tendencies & the two times that i claimed it... once while i was in florida & i didnt understand the whole concept of being straightedge. i think i stopped considering myself straightedge, either when i thought you had to cut out all caffeine products OR just because i didnt want to be labelled. second time, it for like half a day & i wasnt being 100% serious or dedicated. after talking to my boyfriend about the situation, i decided that i want to be 100% pure, for myself & the people that my life affects. i have only been drunk once, & it was with the people who are talking shit about this. im definitely not blaming them (so no one can twist my words around), bc it was me who put the alcohol up to my lips. i am just stating that it doesnt matter if i date the person, friends also "mold" or have an affect on another person if you hang out with them for so long.
2. me possibly going vegan- this isnt a new thing. back when i lived in davidson county, waaay before i even knew dustin even existed, my best friend, elka & i were going to try to go vegan. we were the only vegetarians at school & i suggested we try & go vegan. but it was something that neither of us could actually do. although both of us are trying again. & now that ive been hanging out at the 902 house a lot, & talking to laura about being vegan, i think i am actually going to be able to do it. since i will have the support of others & the food will be there for me & i will be able to learn more about what foods have byproducts in it & which products dont. plus, im lactose intolerant. & eggs upset my stomach anyway. another fucking thing, is i do believe in animal rights. i watch the peta videos & it makes me cry my eyes out. its disgusting.
i just thought i would clarify things for people who are considering me fake or anything to that extent. i want you to know that you people dont know me at all. i have been reserved & ive kept to myself around most greensboro kids.
the few people who actually know something about me in greensboro are: megan vance, adam g (to an extent), emily (kind of), john (tempo), adam (arsn), lentz, travis, hannah, lauren, laura, derrick, dustin & maybe one or two other people.
thanks. (to the few friends i actually do have in this town)